One Girl, Two Jobs and Her Anixiety

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The title sounds like a motion picture which is coming soon however this is the everyday reality for me. Yep, you read it right! Instead of one 40 hour a week role, I work two part time jobs which equivilate to the same hours as a full time job.

During the week (Wednesday – Friday) I intern for a social media agency in the south side of Glasgow and on the weekends I’m a Cast Member for ShopDisney (which is basically like me living my life as a Disney Princess, right?)

Both jobs are completely different from each other and that’s what I love about them! Every day is a school day because I’m constantly learning new skills, how to put a creative twist into various tasks and help me become a better version of myself. With that said, it can be a struggle as my anxiety can creep in at any second and play funny buggers with my emotions.

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One question I get asked often from people who know me is:

How do you cope working two jobs when your anxiety flairs up?

I’m not gonna lie, it can be challenging. My anxiety can appear from nowhere and basically tell me that I’m not good enough at what I’m doing and that I should just give up.

It’s hard and I sometimes wish it was easier to deal with that demon inside my head. What is good to look at is past achievements which have happened in the past to remind myself that I am capable of doing the best that I can. For example, I was awarded Cast Member of the Quarter for January – April 2018 while working for Disney.

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I’m not afraid (nor should anyone) to admit that I do take medication to ease my anxiety. It’s not a bad thing, it’s just a way to help me cope on a daily basis. The tablets will help calm me down when I feel anxious or feel myself going into a state of panic. Luckily, I have a wonderful team of people in both jobs who support me whenever I feel like my anxiety is taking control of me and are so understanding when I don’t have my best days.

Headspace is a great app which you can download and it helps with your breathing and you can use it anywhere (at work, at home, if you’re out and about and you need a moment.) They have packs which you can download which will help with ‘Managing Anxiety’, ‘Finding Creativity’ and ‘Stress’ just to name a few. The app is free and you can try a free session to see if it suits you.

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When my bubbly personality shines through, that’s when I’m at my best and it’s infectious for my other colleagues to see when I’m me and not someone else taking over my brain. It’s important that I keep my distance sometimes and read a book, go out with friends and keep my mind occupied when I need to escape reality for a minute or two.

YOU’VE GOT THIS.

Whether you’re struggling or just needing a little boost of confidence in youself, you can and you will get through what your anxiety tells you you can and can’t do. YOUR ANXIETY DOES NOT DEFINE YOU.

And that is how I cope with two jobs and my anxiety. I hope you’ve enjoyed reading this.

Yours,

T. xo

Let’s Start Again, Shall We?

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You know what it’s like: you start something, you follow through with it and then all of a sudden you lose your passion for it – and that’s okay. Sometimes all you need is a spark, some inspiration and the motivation to try again- even if this is your third time. If I crash, I’ll begin again.

One thing that made me stop was comparing myself to people thinking I could never be like them because they’ve been doing this for years, they’re already established, they have a mass following and you know why that is? Their work ethic is second to none. They work tiredlessly to make sure they’re happy with what they have created and they should be proud of what they’re achieving.

I can write, I have been writing since I was a wee lass so why did I put so much heart and soul into things and then just stop. Was this my anxiety telling me to give up and stop posting? Nobody will read what you have to say, you’ve done this before. What makes this time different?

This time, I have the direction I want to take my blog into, I’ll make time to post content when I’m satisfied with what I have written. I blog because I want to. The spark has ignited for writing and the passion for keeping this going is burning.

For those who have been there through my start/stop blogging, thank you for stickimg by me. For those who are new: welcome, I am Tracey Faye and let’s go on this wild adventure together.

Yours,

T. xo